Let Go and Trust. Let Go and Trust.

On saving space...

Remember in middle school when it was typical to ask someone to save you a seat? Why did we do that? Because we were afraid there wouldn’t be room for us when we got there and we wanted to control the future.

We save space as adults too, although it’s not usually as obvious. It’s for pretty much the same reasons: It’s a way for us to try to control things that are outside our control.

I recently realized that I’ve been saving space for running. Not in my schedule, but in my heart and mind. Instead of trusting that running will be there when I’m ready, I found myself worrying that I won’t be able to “get my run back.”

Here’s the thing: I’m not interested in going back to the person I was in July even though she could run without pain. I’m interested in moving forward and I’m excited to see what the future version of me does with running.

Instead of living in the fear, or lack mindset, that leads me to want to save space for my past self, I’m choosing to trust like a mofo. I trust that the universe is up to something way more magical than I can possibly imagine. And I trust that running will wiggle it’s way back into my life in its own divine timing.

We do this space-saving thing a lot. When we lose someone or something we love, it’s natural to save space for that person or thing. We want them/it back and so we cling to them/it. Clinging, grasping, clenching—whatever we call it—rarely serves us.

It takes courage to let go and it takes massive bravery to trust. This is our practice. Let go and trust. Let go and trust. And be open to possibilities. Everything is unfolding for us.